Found this

I love when I rediscover things I've written. It's as though I didn't write it, but I did so I can still alter it to my perfection. This wasn't titled and I haven't come up with a title so it's untitled for now.

I want to forget you
Go back to the day before I met you
Every muscle to lose its memory
To forget it ever missed it
So it's as if you never existed

How do I undo us?
Or what ever this was
Call it lust.

It couldn't have been love
If it was, was it lost?
Why did we not get lost with it?
or in it, however it is people in love are apt to wander

Maybe we were too found in love we stopped trying
Too ground in love for it to pull us under
Too much something to keep searching the way the lost might quest for the way home

Home, where the heart is
We missed. You're missed.
You mistook me for the type of woman that might stay despite your flaws apparent
For a moment, though I was.
For a moment as I loved with my eyes shut.

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Not too sure if I'm done yet. I feel like maybe there should be a resolution but maybe its fine the way it is? I think that's why I forgot about it. I forgot that I needed to add an ending but what better ending than one without resolution. Nothing in life is wrapped as pretty as my poems tend to be. That being said I still feel like something is missing.

Thought Catalog Submission

I decided to submit my piece, Remember Me, to ThoughtCatalog.com because I think I can write like they can. With my own style and pizzazz of course. So they asked me to tell them something interesting and this was the interesting thing I came up with. Comments? 

STITCHES!!!

Okay. I've been trying to find something to say other than LMAO or LOL. Honestly, it's getting lame. Here are some reason's why.

1. No one really LOL's or LMAO's anymore. I was sitting right next to someone as they texted LOL to someone and not once did I actually hear laughter emit from said person's mouth. LIAR!
2. I catch myself on the verge of actually saying LOL. Like it was a word. I was going to say it with a smile on my face instead of actually laughing. PATHETIC!!
3. I have to think. As in, I just typed out LOL/LMAO but did I really just LOL or am I just trying to insinuate that had we been near each other I would have LOL'd. Yeah. I think too much AND WHAT!!!!
4. I hate all the new abbreviations that I have to keep abreast of. It's getting really hard to have to figure out what all that crap means! Just say what you mean!!

I mean, no shiz* Sherlock, people are increasingly difficult to discern. No one says what they actually mean anymore. Trying to figure you out as a person is difficult enough and now I have to figure out your strange stuck as a teenager language code? BULL!! I absolutely refuse. It was fun when I was in high school and I didn't want my parents to understand what I was saying but NOW I want people to understand me and vice versa. Furthermore, I'd like to not have to decipher your hieroglyphs. SPELL CHECK! I know it fails often but that's why yoU have a brain as well. To double check the double checker you lazy bum!

Enough hating for now. All that's left to say is: STITCHES

Really if somethings that funny I'm sure it'll leave me in stitches! Get it?!?! Whatever. At least it's not an abbreviation and if I find myself keeling over in laughter then I'll know it actually left me in stitches and I can confidently remark stitches!!!


*That's me trying not to cuss, it's a terrible habit that I've acquired and I'm trying to tone it down.

Held back

What's been holding me back lately?

OH. You know. The usual. ME. Myself and that oh so clever I!!

I mean, there are outside factors getting in the way but if I really wanted to I could circumvent them and get a move on with my life. If I've created time enough out of my ass to hang out with my cousins this much; I can pull time out of my ass to send my resume out there into the world and call people up to make sure it was received. You know, things people normally do when they really need to find a job.

Sigh... So, task at hand? Set up a schedule and a plan to accomplish my goals.

DIFFICULT when there are so many DAMN distractions.

Persephone

This isn't done yet. I'm still working on it but I really like it and I've been dying to type it up and share it with you all!! I'll keep working on it till I'm in love, but for now I have a really big poetic crush on it!! =D ENJOY!

Pancake

I'm watching Maury and ... WHO names their kid Pancake? WTH!!!

I'm bored... I need to get myself a job already.

Ain't nothing

So I wrote this back in 2005. I think that's when my struggle to really become comfortable with myself began. This may sound silly to most people but low self esteem isn't an issue that should be belittled. Just because it's easy to ignore and it doesn't obviously disrupt peoples lives doesn't make it any less of an issue than say anorexia. How do you think those girls develop such a horrible disease in the first place? It starts with self esteem and self worth. It's hard to find it in yourself when no one else is giving you reason to believe you're worthy of loving yourself. I've always had good self worth BUT, self esteem is something I've always struggled with. This was one of my first steps in completely accepting myself, every part of myself.